Moment of Forgiveness

well i guess that i was lonely
that's why i called you on the phone
cause in a moment of forgiveness
i didn't want to be alone

and i guess that i was willing
more than i ever was before
cause in a moment of forgiveness
i come a knockin at your door

baby i woke up crying last night
just to realize that you were gone
has it been two long years without you
tell me now
when are you gonna come home

guess that i was hoping
that you'd finally understand
and in a moment of forgiveness
you'd reach out and take my hand

now baby i know
your not one for baring witness
(baby i know)
and you told me that
one wrong move is going to sell you out
(one wrong move)
and i see that you kept your word
(see that you kept your word)
and made it harder than it had to be
wish i could save you the trouble baby
(oh oh oh)
give you a little piece of mind

baby i woke up crying last night
just to realize that you were gone
it's been two long years without you
when are you gonna come home

guess that i was hoping
that you'd finally understand
and in a moment of forgiveness
you'd reach out and take my hand

and in a moment of forgiveness
you'd reach out and take my hand

Hope Alone

let's not drag this out
everything's in motion
although i've only ever loved you kind
and with devotion
remember when i met you
you were leaving from the start
i thought one day you'd probably just come home
and break my heart

it's funny what you know
and still go on pretending
with no good evidence
you'll ever see that happy ending

you
looking for your distance
and sensing my resistance
you had to do your will

i
had to learn the hard way
we were just an empty dream too big
for hope alone to fill

i know i'm a dreamer
(i know that i'm a)
so i'll give you that
(dreamer)
still i hope i'm more than just a place
(still i hope i'm more)
you laid your hat
(than a place you laid your hat)
you're a land of secrets
(you are its only)
its only citizen
(citizen) and though i paid my dues
(though i paid)
i was never allowed in
(i was never allowed in)
and so i am a stranger
(so i am a stranger)
especially today
(especially today)
cause i get sad and lonely
and you get your way

you
were looking for your distance
and sensing my resistance
you had to do your will

i
i had to learn the hard way
that we were just an empty dream too big
for hope alone to fill

holding on for change i know
we never stood a chance
(no we never stood a chance)
so i could only wait
and watch you slip right through my hands
(watch you slip right through my hands)

you
were always looking for your distance
and sensing my resistance
you had to do your will

i
i had to learn the hard way
we were just an empty dream too big
for hope alone to fill

Deconstruction

We talked up all night and still came to no conclusion
We started a fight that ended in silent confusion
And as we sat stuck you could hear the trash truck
Making its way through the neighborhood
Picking up the thrown out different from house to house
We get to decide what we think is no good
We're sculpted from youth, the chipping away makes me weary
And as for the truth it seems like we just pick a theory
It's the one that justifies our daily lives
And backs us with quiver and arrows
To protect openings 'cause when the warring begins
How quickly the wide open narrows

Into the smallness of our deconstruction of love
We thought it was changing but it never was
It's just the same as it ever was

A family of foxes came to my yard and dug in
So I looked in a book to see what this could possibly mean
'Cause there is fate in the breeze and signs in the trees
And possible tragic events
When forces collide with the damage strewn wide
And holes blasted straight through the fence
The sky starts to crash the rain on the roof starts to drumming
And laid out like cash your take on my list of shortcomings
And now the show starts to close, I know how this goes
The plots a predictable showing
And though it seems grand we're just one speck of sand
And back to the hourglass we're going

Back to the smallness of our deconstruction of love
We thought it was changing but it never was
It's just the same as it ever was

We're still in the smallness of our deconstruction of love
We thought it was changing but it never was
It's just the same as it ever was
Our deconstruction of love
Our deconstruction of love

Bitterroot

tonight i'll be sleepin on a mountain top
i got a billion stars for my witness
in the morning i go down and the sun comes up
and i take a drink from the bitterroot river

have you been lonely
yes i've been lonely
i've been lonely too

have you been lonely
yes i've been lonely
i've been lonely too

tonight i'll be sleepin on a mountain top
i got a billion stars for my witness
in the morning i go down and the sun comes up
i take a drink from the bitterroot river

have you been travelin'
yes i've been travelin'
i've been travelin' too

(that girl can play)

have you been travelin'
yes i've been travelin'
i've been travelin' too

(lordy help me be saved)

tonight i'll be sleepin on a mountain top
i got a billion stars for my witness
in the morning i go down and the sun comes up
i take a drink from the bitterroot river
i take a drink from the bitterroot river
i take a drink from the bitterroot river

Become You

i heard you sing a rebel song
sung it loud and all alone
we can't afford the things you say
we can't afford the warranty

well i see you walking in the glare
down the county road we share
our southern blood my heresy
damn that old confederacy

it took a
long time to
become the thing
i am to you
and you won't
tear it apart
without a fight
without a heart

i'm sorry for what you have learned
(learned)
when you feel the tables turned
to run so hard in your race
(race)
now you found who set the pace

the landed aristocracy
exploiting all your enmity
all your daddy's fought in vain
leave you with the mark of cain

it took a
long time to
become the thing
i am to you
and you won't
tear it apart
without a fight
without a heart

it took a
long time to
become you
become you

the center holds so they say
(it never held too well for me)
it never held too well for me
(the center holds so they say)
i won't stop short of common ground
(that vilifies the trodden down)
that vilifies the trodden down
(i won't stop)

the center held the bonded slave
for the sake of industry
the center held the bloody hand
of the execution man

it took a
long time to
become the thing
i am to you
and you won't
tear it apart
without a fight
without a heart

it took a
long time to
become you
become you

it took a
long time to
become you
become you

Our Deliverance

now we can say
that nothing's lost
and only change
brings round the prophecy
and now it's melting
the solid frost
was once a veil on greener landscapes
we would see
beneath my surface
the waters heating
the steam comes up and out the tears
you see me shine
for every strange and bitter moment
there was never a better time

for every pleasure
exacts its pain
how you hurt me
how you were good to me
beneath my window
a mournful train
that makes me smile
at my bad poetry
but beneath my surface
a song is rising
and it may be simple
well it hides its true intent
we may be looking for our deliverence
but it has already been sent

it's in the nightfall
when the light falls
and what you've seen
isn't there anymore
it's in our blind trust
love will find us
just like it has before

they're sending soldiers
to distant places
x's and o's
on someones drawing board
like green and plastic
but with human faces
and they want to tell you
it's a merciful sword
but with all the blood
newly dried in the deserts
can we not fertilize the land with something else
there is no nation
by god exempted
lay down your weapons
and love your neighbor as yourself

it's in the nightfall
when the light falls
and what you've seen
isn't there anymore
it's through our blind trust
that love will find us
just like it has before

You've Got to Show

Yes it's true
I've gotten very moody over you
Don't think I don't sense your caution way across the room
Or across the phone lines
big, black ocean, or conversation brief
We can't find a clear connection, and I can't get relief

Why don't we both agree we're both afraid
and too afraid to say
If I say count to three and move toward me
would you meet me half the way
There are a thousand things about me
I want only you to know
But I can't go there alone
You've got to show

While you occupy me I command my dreams each day
To bring you in me even thinly
as the morning chases you away
I half believe if I just picture us we will come true
Wishful thinking or my hopes sinking
half depends on you

Why don't we both agree we're both afraid
and too afraid to say
If I say count to three and move toward me
would you meet me half the way
There are a thousand things about me
I want only you to know
But I can't go there alone
You've got to show me
You are fully alive

If you want to fly you take this dive
If you want to kiss, kiss for real
I'll give you back everything you feel

Drive in space that peaceful place
You'd be my secret sharer
Front and back and all around the thin margin of error
Move too fast or move too slow or somewhere in between
Navigate your perfect distance so your getaway is clean

Why don't we both agree we're both afraid
and we're too afraid to say
If I say count to three and move toward me
would you meet me half the way
Cause there are a thousand things about me I want only you to know
I want only you to know
I want only you to know
But I can't go there alone, you've got to show

Starkville

if you were here in starkville
the townie boys would love the way you stare
if you were here in starkville
well the local girls they wouldn't have a prayer

well i've spent a reckless night inside the wonder
of your everlasting charm
now i'm haunted by geography and the flora
and the fauna of your heart

at the dawning of some road worn day
i call you on a whim just to say
the morning birds are singing
but i could not do them justice
so i hung up and i fell back to sleep

but i'm in love with my mobility
oh sometimes this life can be a drag
like when i notice your nobility
and how my leaving
it only held you back

but i remember one occassion
when you were drinking
and you asked me to the coast
but i was hell bent on agony back then
and so i missed the boat

at the dawning of some road worn day
i call you on a whim just to say
my regrets become distractions
and i cannot do them justice
and i hung up and i fell back to sleep

when i was down in starkville
i was hiding out inside some comfort inn
from a local gang of troubadours
when the homecoming queen
she come ridin in
(oooh)
yeah

yeah but i slipped out of my room into the rain
(oooh)
and i went running for my health
(oooh)
i watched those headlights turn to moonlight
and finally i was running by myself

now its the dawning of some road worn day
and i call you on a whim just to say
the morning birds are singing

Yield

i was downstairs
in the green room
waiting for you
to appear
i said hello
to your family
i said hello
to your friends
i said hello
to the situation
never yields

now it's easy
for me to tell you
that my love for you
is sincere
but i once stumbled
on these feelings
(on these feelings)
and i once stumbled
on these words
(on these words)
something you
don't ever stumble on
dear

yeah you were so
baroque
all of those words
just to tell me no
and you were so
soft spoken
with all of the others
who said you weren't broken
oh they just let you go

yeah you were so
baroque
all of those words
just to tell me no
and you were so
soft spoken
with all of the others
who said you weren't broken
oh they just let you go

when you're three days
down the highway
and you're looking
like i feel
and it takes a lot
(takes a lot)
to keep it going
it takes a lot
(takes a lot)
to keep it real
take some time
(take some time)
for yourself
and learn to yield

She's Saving Me

we were sitting round a dying fire
somebody lit incense
somebody lit a cigarette
and passed a bottle around
it was just strawberry season
backbreaking pickers in the patches
everythings burning down to ashes
and down to the ground

she's saving me
i don't even think she knows it
it's a strange way to show it as distant as
last nights dream unravels
she's saving me
i'm a very lost soul
i was born with a hole in my heart
the size of my land locked travels

i try to put it aside
but it's too much bigger than me
there's a big brown hawk in the tree
lighting and leaving
and there's tea leaves tossing
heads up pennies in my pocket
dead star like a rocket
the arc of my grieving

she's saving me
i don't even think she knows it
its a strange way to show it
as distant as last nights dream unravels
she's saving me
i'm a very lost soul
i was born with a hole in my heart
the size of my land locked travels

the sky pours out biblical rain
then days so still the beauty gives you pain
the heatwave kills the green
and she remains unseen
the colors of my dreams
with all things blooming

this is not all there is
it's not a kingdom
it's not an angry god
it feels like her
it feels like no fear
it feels like no doubt
it feels like inside out
the ashes stir

she's saving me
i don't even think she knows it
such a strange way to show it as distant as
last nights dream unravels
she's saving me
i'm a very lost soul
i was born with a hole in my heart
the size of my land locked travels

Collecting You

i could paint you in the dark
cause i've studied you with hunger
as a work of art
and these are very secret days
i collect my information
then i stow it all away
call me
when you breeze through
to your appointments
the work you do
call me
i'm collecting you

the pleading prayer and hairshirt sting
my hairtrigger love and faulty spring
Motivation smokes a name
i don't like that smile applied to me
so blindly just the same
call me
when you breeze through
to your appointments
the work you do
call me
i'm collecting you

turning up my collar
(turning up my collar)
to an unseasonal chill
you ask for a favor
you know i will
and the rain comes as surprise
we fly across the railroad ties
i feel the danger
the foolish thrill
oh yes i will

what it will or won't be then
The shutter pre development of the of the inkful in the pen
mind the minds eye's trickery
cause you might picture killer beautiful
much more than it might be
call me
tell me
what you're up to
what you do
call me
i'm collecting you

i would be foolish
to think that i
could turn it off
and stay alive
the way i live
when you switch on
hand on the dimmer
(my hands you)
give me just a glimmer
(in the glimmer)
give me just a shadow
(just a shadow)
of hope around the edges
agony and rapture
forever uncaptured

take these secrets to your grave
drug across your landscape
and buried in your cave
(your piling up)
your piling up and out of sight
(out of sight)
every try to add it up feels like counting shades of light
call me yeah
tell me
what you're up to
what you do
call me
i'm collecting you

hang it in my window
let it complicate my view
the separation
the glass of you
but i can paint this picture
any way that i see fit
the art of pain
the subject sits
unmoved

Nuevas Senoritas

we blew off immigration
the moon was sittin high
we drove from lacandon into comitan
and gloria was singing
and cecelia closed her eyes
and i saw them
drifting out over the night sky

i said neuva senoritas
are you gone to brighter days
have you found your greener valley
and the place where your heart stays

headed back to the flatlands
and you headed up to the hills
rain brings you home middle of july
i guess i just got lonesome
I think about how you feel
six months gone
no one to dry your eyes

i said nueva senoritas
are you gone to brighter days
have you found your greener valley
and the place where your heart stays

i said nueva senoritas
are you gone to brighter days
have you found your greener valley
and the place where your heart stays